xxoo

i want this friendship to start all over from the dead beginning. i want to know her without knowing her friend cause that honestly ruined it for me. i just don't want a friend like her now. i want to be in a friendship where there are no worries and no one is feeling tied down or forced into something.

it'll never work out so i know this magic show is over and the trick is done. oh well...i just want to say that i don't hate you and never will.  you were among the ones that stood up for me. thank you. you will always be someone that i admire, in a sense. lol.

best wishes to you always.

Melting words fall upon the page like the leaves that fall in the October Nights. Everything is meant to be said. Its one continuing sad song. Make your wish its 11:11, the next shift is about to begin. Hearing the words of old centuries time that unfold the truth.  Its all one huge lie. Book of secrets have been published and printed.
Public views are only the beginning. Cruel views and widsom of waves are just around the corner. Write neat on your death note to know that the end is upon us. The end of the book is the true fight. The Big Rally. Big-Bada-BOOM!
The thugs of angels in the field are running the purple water falls. Produce your wishes and to be granted you must fall. The black sky is cracking from the middle to the edge. Do you know where we stop and go? Its the blue light special at K-mart and you are the cheapest thing in the store.
Sing me a love song. Bye-Bye Lullaby. Bye. Bye.

xxoo

my fat ass of a cat noah is sitting next to me. he's adorable. so random but yeah. so i never know what to really write anymore which truly sucks. yeah i think i need a boost of inspiration. thats why tomorrow i am going to take the pride & prejudice book back because it is just really boring. p lus i think i am going to reserve the fight club book by chuck palahniuk and since kate said that would get me a better understanding of his writing, i am doing it. i think dovers library may have it so we shall see but i am doing that tomorrow. i want to read this book, BAD! i was already reading some of diary when my mom had to take it back. it sucked because i really wanted to finish reading it yet i couldn't because i couldn't find my damn library card. i am hoping to get it again soon since i was totally hooked onto every word he was saying. i just LOVE his writing. plus i want to see the choke movie. its going to be the best thing to me compared to across the universe and maybe fight club whenever i see it. haha!

i am bored. a bit tired. gotta go update my LJ now. woot woot!

xxoo

i want this kind of cat when i get some money to adopt a cat or maybe something that is as cute as this and take it with me when i go to miami when i move.

i want to name him/her, shitake. woot!

what kind of cat do you want? what would you name it?

xxoo

here's a list of stuff i want for myself:

i want this shirt soooo bad! i am so going to wear this shirt when me and kate go to bamboozle. <3 i love it!

duh!!!!! enough said.

i want the blue bag of this and kate has the gold purse! i love it yet i need to find where i found this from...maybe it was urban outfitters. i don't remember. haha!

for the florida rain. i'll have to buy some of these. i love them! it was either this pair of the leopard print ones.

i love this shirt too and its my fave pic of the beatles! :D

i loved this bag and this is the bag i plan on taking everywhere once in florida. i am trying to save up money sooo bad. i just love this bag.

this is not actually for ME, its actually for kate since she is IN LOVE with this movie. i love it but not all that much to have a keychain. haha! maybe one day i will be. i just love watching michael cera in it. haha. ^_^

things for the apartment:

i love this towels. i want these for the bathroom. they are supposed to be some weird alien thing or something thats what the ad said but i thought they reminded me of ninjas. i like ninjas better. haha!

i love this light ficture!!!! i want to get this for my room and maybe if kate wants one for her room. haha.

i love these pilows!!!! i want these to go on the couch in the living room. sushi pillows rule!

this i want to be hanged up in my room. i find it sooo adorable.

i want these curtainsbecause they go perfect with my new bedspread that i just bought! :D

this is for the kitchen. i like it but i'm not sure if kate likes it...haha!

alice in wonderland shot glasses. i love them!

measuring spoons for kitchen even though neither of us know how to cook. i think we will be eating out more than anything. living on sushi 24/7!!!!

i loved these plates, they had a japanese feel to them.

fuckk yess!!!! a pink phone for the living room. <3

now to the artwork:

our apartment is going to be one giant carnival, kids playground, and art gallery combined. i am already loving it!!! wooo. i can't wait!

xoxo

talk to kiki online for a long time. love that girl and she is just hilarious! what would i do without her? its great to be chatting with her again. :) love ya homeskillet. hahahaaha! work today was okay. thankfully it went by pretty fast. i am so bored right now and really tired. i am getting ready for bed soon.

good night!

xoxo

she got a hamburger and i got some mcchicken thingy or whatever. it was a bit peppery (thats a word....haha) but still it was all good overall. the highlight of our night was this rude and very cranky person. so we went to the front window to pay for what we had gotten had mcdonalds just to see that this blue suv pulls next to my car. so i sit there wondering what she is doing and i was about to pull up since the girl told me to pull up and the woman walks in front of my car goes to the window while i'm still sitting there and goes to the window and says, "can i have three straws?" (very rude by the way) and the woman gives her the straws and she says, "yeah...like everytime." (i guess implying that she always has to get straws cause they forget) well she walks in front of the car and me and melinda were already laughing. windows rolled down and everything.

so then she looks  me with an evil look like it was my fault she didn't have her 3 straws. then she said, "oh yeah..." (in a sarcastic tone) to us and then we couldn't stop laughing. yes the drive thru line was long and maybe me and melinda were kind of asking a few questions about our meal to make sure we got everything we wanted. well that woman could of easily gone to the inside of mcdonalds, get straws, and get in her car in leave. nope this woman HAD to go through the driver thru. she was a bit crazy in the head and i think she was like going through menopause or some crazy shit. it was hilarious! that so made my saturday night worth while. lol.

i am going to take a quick nap.

how did your guys weekend go? did you have rude pms old ladies harrasing someone for straws?

xoxo

I am just sitting here right now and getting ready to go to work. I love my job and it will remain a secret. Haha! I have been hanging out with Amy a lot lately and I just love her and I kind of forgave Melinda. I really need to stop being so nice. Grrrr! I am mad at myself but she has been a lot more nice and of course she is also starting to hang out a lot more so I see her more and more which I guess is a good thing. I still love my Amy though. :D

I really need to talk to Kate more though since I haven't talked to her in forever which sucks. I know I must be a terrible friend but I am glad that she is still being friends with me even though I hardly get on to talk to her and same goes to Kirstyn. I am sorry I haven't really talk to my fave Upper East Sider in a long time. We shall catch up soon over some lemonade right after me and Kate go to Starbucks. HAHA! I have never had but I have always wanted to try it. I still have a gift card....$10 bucks which is probably enough for like one drink or so. I'm more into iced mochas. Yum Yum. Let the good times roll!!!

xoxo

i am so bored right now. no one is online at this hour obviously but i am about to head to bed in a moment. also, i just made an e-mail but i am not sure if i want the public people of buzznet to have it but i may give it to some people later. i can't wait to finally get all my things moved in. that will be the day and that will just be amazing. monday i am going to search for a job. i hope to get one real soon cause being 19 and jobless sucks. i was so bored and didn't feel like going to amy's and well kate doesn't live here which sucks. i wish she did live here cause she is just awesome. enough said.

i am going to bed right now. i may update with some hanna/audrey pics tomorrow. i'm sooo exhausted.

love you kate. i hope you guys have a lovely night and i'm not sure well and if i'll be able to get online. just have to see what plans come up.

xoxo