only one out of the two

i lost two 'friends' if you wish to call them that. yet, i felt more with a friend to one and more of an enemy towards the other. yet of course, i found out though that the enemy seemed more of a friend. it says, "keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer." i am not sure if they meant in a negative way but i think that i should of been more closer with the enemy.

i want this friendship to start all over from the dead beginning. i want to know her without knowing her friend cause that honestly ruined it for me. i just don't want a friend like her now. i want to be in a friendship where there are no worries and no one is feeling tied down or forced into something.

it'll never work out so i know this magic show is over and the trick is done. oh well...i just want to say that i don't hate you and never will.  you were among the ones that stood up for me. thank you. you will always be someone that i admire, in a sense. lol.

best wishes to you always.